Stress...
Rejection...
Abuse of narcotics...

Been sick all the year...

Dont realy make fuss about new years and such but cause its a quantified factor that we can measure stuff in, I most likely can accept that and then see whats happened last year and improve it this year. My most recent issue had been mediagerm.

I joined mediagerm cause the guy was the first person that gave me a chance to excel i really liked the site and i had big plans for it. But as usual people are never the same when you first meet them, Rather not talk about it but i wont even lie, i got kicked out of that site. Even though i spent alot of money and even money on business cards and made 4 revisions of the portfolio.

But i moved on swiftly as i saw that the site had done nothing for me in return.

Then on d-a it seems like i dont even exist. I cant be bothered to ass lick people to get 101000 faves and comments but at the same time it seems like i have few issues with artists and it seems like my work does not get any sort of response or review. besides the usual viewer here and there, I cant seem to pick up any hardcore fans or serious talents who are spotting me out, Maybe its because i don't post enough of my work ?

I'm not sure i just find it really hard to be bothered to beg for every view. This makes me question my ability to design?

Are people even watching me, i already can assume ill get 5 comments in this journal, if that at all.

Maybe i should be more polite to those that do comment? post more work ? try out more things, This stage of my life i hate design and pc's i kind of blame all my bad happenings because of this. So i have a sence of hatred towards my skills.

So what do you lot think?